rodney allen chavera - Online Memorial Website

I am not trying to be a bitch but when you have walked a mile in my shoes then you can talk . HE IS MY SON, I will never see him again or hear his voice. Everyone who ever knew him or was supposed to be his friend, well your life goes on, We his KIDS brothers and sisters and I and neices and nephews well our lives are never going to be the same, so you can judge me any way you want to , but I am sick of seeing people that don't even matter leave messages,or light their candles ..., where was everyone at when he needed friends the most, or when funeral arrangements were made or during the funeral, yes I am bittter and I am a bitch I don't care I am not trying to sugar coat it for ayone about this,    I hope none of you have to be in my shoes you would be bitter too

Hey babe im sitting thinking bout the day i lost you and how hard it was and now my grandpa is in the hospital and they say it isnt good and i was hugging my grandma a she was crying and said to me Samantha this is so hard and i know what she is going through because it brought me back to the day i lost you and i just hugged her and told her that it would be ok! They have been together since she was like 14 and that was 53 years ago and we was togethet 8 yrs but it still hurts all the same but the thing is i get to try and move on but she cant and wont and i love her so much and im going to be there for her no matter what happens! And if you could would you look after my grandpa and take care of him? Well Buddy dont think for one min that i dont think of you each and everyday that goes by! I love you! And i wish you was here at times like when John caught Chris somking i dont know why he is acting out he knows how you felt about smoking and im going to start putting my foot down with that boy i love him so much and what him to make something of his life! I know he can do it hes so smart and  i know he can do what ever he sets his mind 2! Just watch over him as i know you are doing and try to lead him in the right direction! Missing you and loving you always no matter what anyone trys to say i know you  love me too!

Hey babe im wanting to talked to you about how im feeling and whats going on in my life and i know you would be happy for me! I finally found someone i want to spend the rest of my life with and im going to get married to someday and i know you are looking down on me and wishing me the best and you know he loves our kids so much and he will take care of us! And i know ur family are not happy they said im a bad mom and dont care of my kids or love them and you know damn well i love my babys and wouldnt trade them for anything and this world but im making a better life for all of us and with a man i want to be with for the rest of my life! Well i love you buddy and i always love you you have my heart always and forever!!!!!

Its so hard to get on here in put into words all the great times we had together! We had such great times like when we went to fortney mills and camped out and went swimming and did a few other things in the water too lol. All the times me you teresa and tim went to the wooden nickle and partied! And the trips i took with you to virginia man that was alot of fun such good times i would never trade those for all the money in the world! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABE!

Hey babe just thinking of you on this fathers day letting you know i miss you and love you so much! Wish you was here to spend it with Chris and Alexis cause they miss you so much i can see it in their eyes everyday and it hurts so bad! But i make sure along with your family that they dont forget you and i promise you that they will always remember you! So i just wanted to let you know i love you and miss you sooooooo much!!!

I miss you so much! I have alot of great memories with with ill never forget you!!We had good time and a beautiful baby girl together and i cant wait to see you on the other side!

Hey everyone this is a sight for buddies memories not slinging shit at eachother, havent we all lost enough, please just stop, My heart cries everyday for the ones we lost and getting on here or the other websight and doing the same stuff is just wrong. this is not the place to do this. we will never be able to bring them back and tearing eachother apart all the time is not going to solve this, we need to seek god to get through the anger and pain, you may not agree with me but im telling you if you keep carrying this pain and anger it will eat you alive , put it in gods hands please, and let buddy rest in peace.

                                                   I Love you buddy  Love aunt Danette

You would get sick if you knew how good this man treats me and i would love to rub it in your face and there's a few other thing's i would do to you but you'r a bitch and wont say you'r name cause i know your scared! And you really think you get to me by saying he only stayed with me for Lexie whatever i know he loved me and you can never take that from me cause lexie was 3 yrs old what about the other 3 yrs? So say what you like cause this song you keep singing is OLD AND PLAYED OUT so try singing a new one like saying your name and stop being a sad sad bitch that hide's!!!!! And also the man im with love's me and my kids we just bought a brand new home and he gave me a half carat diamond promise ring a full carat engagement ring so try choking on that! And when your women enough to face me ill be women enough to sat down and have a nice little talk with you!!! I wish everyday you would step to the plate but you must know me and know what would go down! So have a nice life cause i know i'am. Also i'm never going to stop loving or missing Buddy no matter where i am and who im with!!!

I was telling Lexie and Skyleigh about a few stories the other day they were listening to the song Shes in love with the boy and i started thinking bout how you, me, teresa and tim would go out to the wooden nickle and me and teresa would sing that song, you and tim loved when we sung that song! The one storie she loves me to tell her and the one where we was in bed and she was sleeping in the middle of us and out of nowhere she just said uhm daddy you smell like strawberries in her sleep, we laughed so hard bout that. And the other one is the day we had her she loves for me to tell her how happy you was jumping up and down and how you was crying. Man babe i sure do miss you so much! I hope with all my heart that you are happy for me and not mad that im finally found someone to be with that loves me and our kids. Im very happy and we are getting married and i really really know deep down insiide my heart that you approve and would want nothing more for me and our kids then for me to be happy. Well i love you and think of you everyday!

Hey babe wanted to let you know about the trip to Maryland this past weekend, Chris went fishin a caught a 28 inch fish with his friend Roger and my uncle Bob and my cousin Rob. We had a really good time i wish you could have been part of it. Lexie is doing really good in school and Chris got 1 F so he is grounded til he brings his grades up. Well i can get on here now anytime i want since i got my internet on. Well i love you and miss you with all my heart!

Hey babe just sitting here thinking bout all the trips i took with u to virginia we had so much fun! Remember when we went to kings dominion we had alot of fun u held my hand on almost every ride. Had a great time with Becky she always made me feel welcome at ur house. I wish we would have been able to share things like that together with our kids. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! i might have found someone that i want to be with and love but he'll never take ur place!

Soon i'll be able to get on here everyday if need be just to let u know i love you and i'm always thinking of you. I sitting here thinking of all the great time's we had together and u know as well as i do there was so many of them! Buddy you would be so proud of Christopher and Alexis they r doing so well in school i put Chris on the wrestling team and really didnt care much for it but he begged to let him join. Alexis does so good in school she 's very good a spelling she always get's them right each week for her spelling test u would be so proud! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WISH EVERYDAY U WAS STILL HERE WITH US TO ENJOY THESE MOMENTS WITH US! There's not a day that goes by that we dont think of you and speak your name.

ohhhh nooooo so scary coming from someone like u ( i dare U what r u in 1st grade)

To the person i dont know, let me say one thing u musst not know Buddy cause if u did you would know that Chris is his son maybe not by blood but theres more to being a dad then blood and his name was Buddy! And u must be scared to say ur name cause you know your a piece of shit and if u want to speak to me call me u bitch cause i know ur a dumb bitch who wants to hide behind a computer if u got any guts at all call me my number its 3042901918 i dare u

 

First off,Samatha how do you get that Chris is Buddy's son when you your self asked Buddy to forgive you,for letting Chris meet his (REAL,DAD) and secondly you were never MARRIED to him so there for Chris can't be his step son either!!!!!!REALLY you need to live in the real world...........And you need to step back and look at your life and the lives of your kids,you know the old saying,the apple never falls far from the tree.........Do you want your kids growing up and doing DRUGS!!!!!!!!The drugs people take and think they can handle it ,usually end up killing them,stop and think do you want that for your kids.........YOU KNOW what happened that awful night,you know what you were more worried,it wasn't getting help for the man you say you loved,it was more about getting something out of there before the cops showed up.............BY the way every one knows about it even the cops!!!!!!!!Thirdly Why hate the mother of the man you supposedly love,she never done anything to you,she is his mother that got the terrible phone call,saying her son was dead,how would you feel if it was you that got the phone that it was your son that had died!!!!!!!!!!SO next time you want to say hateful things to anyone no matter who it is,stop and think how you would feel if the tables were turned and you were on the recieving end of hateful words!!!!!!!!I have always been told until you walk a mile in someones shoes don't judge them,or if you can't say something nice don't say anything at all...... SO SAMATHA you should take better care of your kids cause you never know from day to day what life will deal to you and they might be taken any time just like BUDDY was no one thought that would happen and it did!!!!!!!

there you go girl give miss samantha her what for's it's about time she such a loser..hopeful she never has to go through what you all went through a mother should never have to bury her children or child  god bless you shirley ann for speaking your mind !!!!!!

Well once again you can get on here and lie Samantha I have no reason to lie. your daughter is the one telling me you have no food and chris has complained about it also, and yes there are times when alexis doesn't want to come with us but thats because she doesn't like rules and when she is with us we have to make her come home to which she always replys you know i don't have any food at home. i am so sick of all your lies and and you acting like the poor victim, I know the truth and i don't even know it all yet but I will. alexis and chris do with out alot of things because of the shit you choose to do with your money. but I guess that is your business right. and if you want to get technical who are you to cut me about chris. when most of the time he is with the neighbors, they do everything with him not you or your family. and about his birthday well its about time you had a party for him but too bad it was a last minute thing everyone already had other plans and as for me well i am with my dad most of the time.I cant buy chris anything for his birthday or give him money it always comes up missing. I love chris and you can keep telling him what ever you want to but the truth of the matter is this he will grow up someday and see you for who you really are he will still love you but he will know the truth and I won' teven have to tell him anything. alexis already sees some of it she love you but but she will know too.so you can write anything you want to everyone thats reads this knows the truth including you!!!!! Grow up samantha and be the mother that your kids need.and if alexis really don't want to come over thats fine too but boy that will hurt your plans too. unless you can get someone in your family too keep her.i sit and think about all the bull shit you all pass on and tell people and its really kind of funny because you tell it to people who really don't make a shit to me or anyone important. If only you could have known some of the stuff Buddy really thought and that includes what he felt about all of you.he cared about you samantha but he wasn't in love with you. but he sure loved his kid and he could never leave her willingly. and he loved chris too . soinstead of pointing out all that i should be doing for chris maybe youshould sit down and think about all the quality time you spend with him, it sure wouldn't add up to much, and when you are home you are either sleeping and don't know where they are or what they are doing Samantha just shut up and worry about your own family problems because there are alot of them.   I am not going to fight with you you won'ty come out the winner, just take care of your kids and you won't have to worry.

hi daddy i miss u so much n love u alot i will always be ur baby girl daddy

Hey babe i'm sitting here and thinking about how you'r family like's to make me look so bad' i got on their site and got to reading some of the thing's they write about me, making it look like they have lexie all the time and i think that is so funny seeing how when they call and ask me to come and get her i got to make her go with them cause she hate's going anywhere with them and they take her for day's and she get's so mad at me for making her go, and when they do bring her home she don't go back for many week's at a time.I guess if that make's them feel better to make up lies about me not having food or other thing's for my kid's then so be it, but you know as well as i do who has lexie ( not chris god forbid they pay any attention to chris). Well i love you and miss you everyday/

Dear Uncle Buddy, Hey i miss you so much. I think about you all the time i wish you was here to play with me. I play with lexie all the time she is my best friend. Me and lexie love you so much!

hey i miss u so much n i love u so much. u will be in my heart. alexis miss's u so much n loves uuuuuuu we all love u. skyleigh miss u so much n love u so much. chris love u alot i didnt make it 2 his bday. at nanny love u n miss u alot i got 2 go love hailey jo

Well we had christopher's birthday today and he was not his self he talkes about his last birthday we spent with you and how much he missed you. He got and wv montaineer cake and we tried to make it fun for him but we all was hurting. Nobody from you'r side of the family came they didn't    even call him to wish him a happy birthday and that hurt him even more, and i know you are up looking down on them all and woundering why they treat him this way he is woundering the same thing. They will reget doing this to him. Well we love you and miss you so much! 

Hey babe it's almost fathers day and yet we are spending it without you again, you know it never gets any easier and i sat and think about what lexie and chris have lossed and how they will never really know what kind of dad they had no matter how much i tell them and my heart hurts so much when i look into their eyes. You was one of a kind and i will always love you. I konow you will look over them and bring some peace into their lives and that brings me a little peace in a really dark time in my life right now. I love you and miss you forever!

There is something all you guys that come on here and say how much you love Buddy could've done to help him. Instead of helping him you chose to do drugs with him,go with him to get them,or sell them to him yourselves. Is that Love? None of you knew him. You knew the Buddy that you had parties with and did drugs with. He had a problem and instead of loving him and being there for him you sold him drugs and did them with him. That's not friendship and it's not showing him you care. So to all you guys out there that say you love him and miss him so much everyday think about the kind of relationship you had with him. If any of the people that really love him knew what was going on we would've helped him not do drugs with him.How do you feel about yourselves now??????

this is to any of petes family please go to the other web sight.i will try to call ou aurora its just alll sinking in right now and i am glad you all are in touch with the girls feel free to write anything on his web sight you would like to. i will be in touch with you all soon