Memories
hey bud i havenet wrote anything in a few weeks n im sorry i have been dealing with alot of things rite now as im sure u kno me and samantha was starting to hang out again but thats over now you kno i should have just trusted my instict and never let that bitch in my house forreal i should have never trusted her i should have listened to our family
Hey babe just want to let you know i'm thinking of you always and i miss you more then anything and people think just cause we wasnt married that i should just move on and it all be so damn easy well i don't see myself moving on anytime soon and it hurts me so much to know that i will never wake up next to you or hear our kids tell me where their daddy took them and hear them holler your name when you pull up in the driveway those things get to me so much and i want you to know and im sure you do that my heart will always be your's no matter what other man may be in my life.Love you and always thinking of you
uncle buddy, i love you and miss you very much... i will always remember you no matter what because my mommy always talks about you and shows me a picture of. you will never be forgotten
buddy, i just wanted to tell you thanks for helping me with chyanne when i didnt have anything for her or no body to help me with her, you were always there when i needed some one to come and get me from my moms . i can honestly say you are the best person i've ever met , you were always looking out for other people and always doing your best to help them out no matter what, i love you and miss you very much...
a few more things i need to say, i remember a time when we all got along and laughed annd had a good time just being togeather enjoying eachothers family, we caant forget the memories we sshared, i too said some mean things and my heart felt bad and heavy another burdden i dont want to carry around, instead of useing all this energy to hurt eachother we need to use it to fix this family, and bring back some hope, love, laughter, annd remember buddy in our own ways without all this crazyness.eveeryone please stop making this gap wider. sammantha honey im sorry i hurt you, i know you loved buddy. and thressa, im sorry for hurting you too.i just want us all to be like it used to be, we can find that love and laughter again if we really search for it, how about it? i truelly want this to end.
Danette
you know ive had a few days to think aabout all this bitter fighting and painful things that cant be taken back, but you have to understaand a mothers love for her child, and when that child has been taken so suddenly over something that could have been avoided, theres a pain that eats at your soul, ive realised god dosent want us treating eachother like this, its just not right,sso from here on out im going tto help this family to try and keep the peace, we did all love buddy and we all have our pain, so im sorry if i said anything to hurt anyone. i waant to maake peaace with all of you.
daanette
Tanya whenever you get ready to give me mine just let me know. I just said my true feeling's on here and that's all if you can't accept that well I don't know what to tell you. It took alot for me to sit down there at Bubby's house with you when we had Tina's party when she graduated. Did you ever think that maybe if you just gave us I am sorry for your loss that might have helped us some. I know that Buddy was a big boy and Buddy did what he wanted to but you and Eric didn't have to do what you did either. Maybe thing's would be different right now if he wouldn't have taken that shit. I still have alot of anger inside me toward's everyone. Do you know what it was like to get that call that morning. It was an event I don't ever want to have to go through again. All I could say was your joking right and then I just fell to my knee's and started crying and screaming this can't be happening and oh my god my brother is dead he is gone. you felt hurt but you will never hurt as much as me, Tina, Bubby, and Peggy. That was our brother and there will never be no one else ever again like him no one can ever replace him. So you can be mad at me or want to kick my ass or whatever but I really don't care. These are my feeling's and you just have to understand that. Maybe one day I will be able to forgive you but it won't be for a long time. So there you go now you can read this and erase it.
TANYA WHEN I GET HOME I EXPECT A CALL FROM YOU WE NEED TO HAVE A TALK. I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU ANYMORE, I LOVE YOU AND I DONT EXPECT YOU TO TAKE SIDES SO WE NEED TO TALK AND DANETTE WANTS TTO KNOW WHERE YOU GOT THE SONG ON HERE AND WHO SINGS IT AND THE NAME OF IT. WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT. SO YOU E- MAIL ME AND GIVE ME YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS SO I CAN TALK TO ONLY YOU
oh my gosh i had to share this memory with you just one more time! remember that guy that i had dated chad? member when his friend(tracy leggetts )brother told you to suck his dick on the phone!? you was so mad that he talked to u like that you wouldnt let me see chad anymore you was going to beat him up omg it was so funny ! till this day that guy is probally scared of you!or do you remember when we was in wisconsin for jeremys funeral and i decided to go to that dance with jeff and holie and missy and that fat boy (cant memberhis name )lol member i got dressed in like 5 min and looked really good when we was there u also told me outside at uncle ricks that jonny was gay we just have so much funny memories togeather or when we was at our family reunion and i think it was butch that kept callin lil ced the n word or kept sayin the n word and peggy was so mad we ended up leavein cause she was ready to kill him !you know they say u didnt love samantha like we say u did then why did u tell me that u was going to marry her u had to send for ur bith c and ur ssc or sumtin and u was gonna get married at the court house so no one could ruin it then you was gonna have a real wedding after u was already married? things like this just drive me crazy! bud i not choosing sides im not saying what she does now is right but i know you loved her u wasnt forced to love her and you was there for more than just lexie and chris! i dont know all this fighting and crazy shit going on just has me thinking how crazy people are ! and if you was only here to see what machelle said about me you would trip i know you would but she will get hers when i see her ! you know no one will ever know the bond that me and u shared i could talk to u about anything and u could also do the same! and you did you talked to me about many of things that was bothering you ! and you didnt do that with alot of people ! becasue you tried to make the best out of everything ! god do i miss you if you was here i would probally be sitten here wit you ramblin on bout all my problems you would probally have fallen asleep on me by now (u was good at that) anyways i will talk to you soon and i hope you know why i havent been up to see you im just not ready yet ! i love you and miss you!
hey bud, i was thinkin alot about you today ! im goin threw alot right now and my mind is going kinda crazy and i know if you was here i could call you for advise but i know what you would tell me i know you like the back of my hand when it comes to things like this! you would say your better than that just leave! wouldnt you?? i know so i thought i would get on here and try to talk to you about it but its alot diff cause you aint sayin nuttin back but you aint gotta say anything i know what you would say! ! i just really need you to watch out for me and my girls i really need it i need u to be my angel and get me out of this hole mess that im in love is so crazy bud i just dont ever think i will find the right one ! its like impossible to find a good guy! the way things are goin right now i dont think anything will ever change! im just trying to make a better life for me and the babys !! i dont know just watch out for me like you would if you was still here PLEASE !! i know you will i love you and miss you so much
This is a better thing to see on here and not fighting and rude comments Buddys family is hurting. Just think we have known him all our lives and one rainy morning we got the worst call ever. Our souls are hurting and will hurt forever. Not a day goes by that his name is not mentioned. We will forever have a hole in our spirits and a loss that none of you know. Buddy was a special kind of person that you dont meet everyday and if you were blessed to have such a wonderful person in your life how would you feel if you just had your souls torn out. He was the kind of person that could light up a room with just a smile. Sometimes he didnt even have to smile to light it up just by walking in to it you could tell he was there. This family will never have another Buddy. He is gone to us forever and maybe someday you all may understand what that means to loose such a person. I pray that you never feel that kind of pain. Samantha will eventually go on with her life and find someone else that brings her joy I hope you do but as for us we will never have another buddy. He was alot of things to alot of people but to us he is and was and will always be FAMILY. I understand that you are all hurting and suffered a loss also that is one fact that does not go unknown because who ever knew him was touched by him in some way.So I do understand that you are hurting also. we all hurt in different ways but for you Samantha there still is time for you to be happy and go on. Dont waste your life in misery be happy and go on but always remember that you have one of the most treasured things to buddy....HIS DAUGHTER. So cherish her and love her and keep her safe because thats what he would want for her to be taken care of in the best way possible and if thats what you are trying to do then good but if there is a time that you may have put her in a bad situation its now the time to correct that mistake. We as parents are never perfect but the good thing is that its never to late to start all over and try harder. Thats our job to try harder where the kids are concerned as parents. We all loved Buddy and I know that you all loved him to but there are some things that you dont understand about what this has been like for us. You all know the Buddy that liked to go out and have a good time but there is another side to that you guys dont know. Thats the side that we knew. The Buddy that love to show off his intellegence and the buddy that loved the beach and the one that was happy just to sit and eat dinner and enjoy a nice competive game of outburst or scrabble. Those are things that we enjoyed with him and the things that he enjoyed also doing with us. He love to be here when we could just hang out and enjoy talking to each other. The buddy who love to cook chinese food for us all and he thought that he was an IRON CHEF. Those are the memories that we will have to pass on to his kids. They are the real important ones here. Its not important if he got upset at my mother for lecturing him for the stupid things he did. But that was her job as a parent to try to bring it to his attention that he didnt always make the right or best decisons all the time. I would hope that all of you would be thankful to her for doing it because maybe one of those ass chewings saved him from going to jail or dying earlier than he did. She is the one here was that was there for him up until the end when he needed something he went to his mother and my dad for it. So maybe you should consider that the next time you see her and maybe you should say thanks for helping him out when he needed it. I know that Buddy loved this family reguardless of what you may believe. I knew buddy my whole life and he would not like all this thats going on from either side. Maybe its time to put down your guns and try to work things out like adults and think about what HE would want. Life is hard for all of us and why try to complicate it even more. Tanya I know that you have had to deal with this all also and just know that Buddy would never blame you he loved you just like he loved me michellle and peggy. He thought of you as a sister that he had to watch out for. You also dont need to continue to beat yourself up over it. If any of us knew what was goning to happen we all would have done things different. But thats what life is about. Do any of you know why we die.......... we die to make life mean so much and be so precious.You only have one life so use it wise and think about what impact you want to have on the people that knew you. If you erase this I will know that it will only come back to haunt you because the things that i have stated here are my feelings and this is somethings that everone should think about. I love you lex and chis love always Aunt Tina
we miss you lots!!!!!!!!!!
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ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU AND MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY!
just wanted to say i was thinking of you ! and i miss you lots! send a kiss and a hug for us and tell great grandma we said hello and we love her and miss her
I love you and miss you alot !! give the babys a kiss they need it !! wish you was here with us !!love you always
Another year and look lexie's birthday is less then two week's away and we have to spend it without you, day's like those really get to me. You'r birthday is not so far away as well, you'r going to be 32 wonder what we would be doing right now if you still were here. Remember the night you came home and was telling me that you saved my dad from getting his ass kick, for some reason the friend of my dad's that was talking to him that night you thought was trying to start a fight with him, you was telling me that nobody was going to mess with my dad when you was around ! And also how you could'nt get the surround sound hook up to the tv you tried so hard to get it right but really had no idea what you was doing so you said you would bribe my dad to come down and hook it up by making him some home made pizza ha ha . I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH SAMMY JO
THIS IS ANOTHER ONE I HAD TO ERASE BUD!! THEY JUST WONT STOP! THEY ALL NEED TO GROWN UP
FIRST OF ALL IT WASN'T MEANT TO HURT YOU, I COULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT YOU FOR THE LONGEST TIME BECAUSE YOU TOTALLY AVOIDED ME AT THE FUNERAL AND THEN YOU HAD ERIC BRING YOU THERE OF ALL PEOPLE . YOU NEVER STAYED LONG WHEN YOU DID COME. BUT I PUT AL THAT ASIDE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO HAVE THIS PROBLEM WITH YOU, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE YOU ARE AGREEING WITH THEM SO WHAT EVER YOU FEEL IS FINE I DO LOVE YOU, YOU HAVE BEEN MY NEICE LONG BEFORE ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE CAME ALONG. I HAVE SINCE EXCEPTED THE FACT THAT BUDDY TOOK THE DRUGS HIS SELF BUT IT DOSEN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER, AND I PUT WHAT I WAS FEELING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE I DO LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. BUT OUR RELATIONSHIP WILL NEVER BE THE SAME BECAUSE YOU ARE STILL WITH ERIC AND THATS YOUR CHOICE BUT I DO LOVE YOU. AND THE KIDS I'M SORRY YOU THOUGHT WE WERE OUT TO HURT YOU BECAUSE WE ARE NOT SHIRLEY ANN
HEY uncle bud,
monday was my birthday i wish you could have been there to celebrate with us !! i love you and miss you alot ! hugs and kisses forever
i miss you and love you ! i look at the stars and think of you! wish you was here with us ! it just is not the same without you we miss and love you
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